These feelings...are beyond words.

When it's an act of God, can words used to describe it give it justice?

Well, I'm gonna try to write about it anyway. Ha ha.

My heart has been opened, revived. I am free. Free to love. Free to believe.

Free to live for God.

~ tessmarie (April 12, 2010)



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Well, it's come to this point.

Love is one of the most amazing feelings.
But if you don't watch yourself, it can turn into hate.

If you love someone and you think you can't let them know, you could possibly become bitter. Bitterness can sink into your heart. Maybe you feel like the person you care/cared for is the one to blame. But really, that's not the case. It's you. Emotions can be controlled. If you let yourself become angry, you're the only one who can stop those feelings.

It may or may not be wrong to continue loving that person. But whatever you do, don't turn love into hate.

It's miserable.

~ tessmarie (April 9, 2010)


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AFB - Personalities

Character analysis- fun stuff.

I don't believe in astrology, but I think some experimenting with it could do me some good.

❍ Saccharine~ is like a Pisces.
> Her personality is sweet and thoughtful, but she could easily become sad depending on her surroundings.
> Her challenge is to be strong and overcome negative emotions in order to protect and care for those she loves.
> She's NOT exactly like a Pisces, of course. She is strong-willed when she needs to be.
* But regardless of this, I think I will make her birthday March 31st.

❍ Blair~seems to resemble a Sagittarius.
> He is sensitive, always dwelling, and very kind.
> His emotional strength is a unique quality.
> He is easy to connect with.
> Has good sense of humor and is interesting.
> When he chooses to make a loyal friend, he tries to do it carefully.
* So...December 17th will be his birthday.

❍ Charlie~is like an Aries or a Gemini or even a Scorpio.
> Charl is agressive at times, but seeks peace.
> Determination conflicts with Charl's emotions.
> S/he has a complex character. There's a lot I don't know.
* November 7th is Charlie's date of birth.

Eh, this is subject to change. I'm not sure, but, at the moment, I agree with it.

~ tessmarie (April 9, 2010)


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Kamehameha!

I've been craving some Dragonball Z. Call me crazy, but I love that show. And it's more than the nostalgia. And by nostalgia, I mean I used to watch the show in 1st/2nd grade on Cartoon Network. I watched it in order to relate to the boys at my school. I had only a couple of friends so that helped me kind of socialize. I remember looking for "dragonballs" on the playground. Fun times. I just think it's weird that I started watching a show over 10 years ago and now I'm 18 and still love it. But of course I have good reasons.

1. The characters are fascinating, both with personality and looks.
2. The story lines, though long, keep me hooked.
3. It's a long series that takes time and dedication to watch.
4. There are plenty of surprises, ha ha.

But again, it's silly a lot. Not just funny, but silly. Things happen that don't make sense almost every episode.
I'm not complaining though. It's not like the show is trying to be realistic.

I have a few favorite characters. The two that top my list are Vegeta and future Trunks. Goku fluctuates on my list, depending on my mood. Ha ha. But the Saiyan Prince and his son are always fun to watch, especially the relationship between the two. I guess I'm a sucker for the whole father-son aspect of it.

Here are two sketches I drew of Vegeta. They're sloppy but I think they're cute. Oh and also, these were drawn on my school planner, hence the numbers and writing all over the place.





Why am I still blogging? I've got a whole lot of DBZ to catch up on. :)

~ tessmarie (April 8, 2010)


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Avid Diva - This chick ain't me, is she?

Avid Diva, my other story...

While it's still a "baby story", its origins began when I was in the 2nd or 3rd grade. Here is the daydream that helped to create Avid Diva. I imagined that I had an "alter ego". She seemed to be between the ages of 19 and 24? What's even weirder is that she wore a black bodysuit and lived on a ship in outerspace. Yeah, pretty odd. And I wasn't sure if she was a villain or a hero. She made jokes to herself, and a small animal sidekick? I'm not sure. My memory is a little fuzzy. But I do remember she had somewhat of an ego...maybe because she had no human contact. Anyway, that's how it started.

It's becoming something almost entirely different.

Similarities:
- She will look almost exactly like me (hair color, eye color, body shape, etc.)
- Her personality will be the same as I imagined.
- Black will be a key color for her.

Differences:
- Chances are she won't be living in a spaceship. Ha ha. (maybe in HER imagination.)
- Bodysuits aren't considered "normal" attire in the 21st century, as far as I know.
- Will probably be more sociable.
- The plot: she is destined (blessed) to be celibate.

Her journey has begun. :)

~ tessmarie (April 8, 2010)


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Reoccurring Heartbreak?

If we were meant to be together, it would so weird.
Because you know my intentions even when I don't.
You make my heart beat uncontrollably and it's so sudden.
I guess I say it would be weird because I can't imagine that you feel the same.
While you're calm and collected, I'm losing my mind...to your heart.

~ tessmarie (April 8, 2010)


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AFB - Past and Present

(Note: AFB stands for At First Blush.)


Background/History-

The rough idea for this story came into my mind around the time I was 15 years old, three years ago.
It started off as a girl who was dressed as a boy or something very similar. I would imagine her in awkward situations where she couldn't hide the fact that she was female. Embarrassing stuff really. Thinking back on it, I had come of with some pretty disturbing scenarios. Ha ha. But the story has changed a good bit and now, it actually has a plot. The main character is a girl who dresses like a guy, BUT she's transgender. That's right. So, she's a he. And she has friends and family in the story. Also, while she is the main character, the other characters play big parts in the story. It doesn't mostly revolve around her, but then again, it kinda does. I'm still shaping basic parts of the story so a lot is undetermined/undecided. You'd think after 3 years, I would have gotten further, but no, and I like the pace the story's at now. :)


Character development so far~

● Charlie / Charlotte (Charl for short)
- The main character, a transgendered boy. (FTM)
● Maerie "Saccharine" (Sacch for short)
- becomes a close friend of Charlie.
● Blair (This is a guy.)
- becomes a close friend of Charlie.
● Name Not Yet Decided
- Charlie's older brother
● Queenie (Nickname or real name?)
- Maerie's younger sister
● Anthony
- Guy who find out Charl's true sex and flirts with/teases him (He doesn't tell anyone else.)
● Danae
- Girl who starts to fall in love w/ Charlie (Doesn't know he's female.)
● Name Not Yet Decided
- Guy who is the boyfriend of the girl mentioned above.

Wow, feels good to get that out.

~ tessmarie (April 7, 2010)


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At First Blush (and Avid Diva)

At First Blush is a story I've created that is very special to me.
Because of my youngest brother's advice, I've decided to post ideas and progress about the story on here.
It's going to be silly and weird, but I love it. And I want to track how it changes- and also, I want others to read it.

*deep breath* O.K. :)

P.S. I have another story that I've just started creating, Avid Diva. Recently I found out a music artist, I think, has this name, but I've liked the name for a couple years so I'm sticking with it.

~ tessmarie (April 7, 2010)


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